I'm in a really lazy mood today. I'm lazy anyway but this is particularly lazy. I've been doing quite alot recently so now, I'm just gonna chill. I'll finish work, go see queen bee for a while, do some shit for mum then just play guitar for the rest of the day.

Today has been quite boring at work. No-ones been on imreallybored.com very much so its just been me. No contact with anyone but stupid people who don't know how to use a computer. No real beef either so I can't moan about anything to pass the time. Except the smoking.

Its hard to believe that after three weeks and one day, I still need a cigarette. Not as bad as before mind, but its still there. For the most part I'm normal and happy. But I've got a very short fuse. Just the slightest things piss me off to the max. I hope it goes away because if its not going to then I may aswell just start again!

Yeah well I can't think of anything else to say just now so yeah. Bye.

So I spoke to her last night, right after I had decided that the age gap was fine with me. I then told her about me moving to Guilford and left it up to her as there are two things wrong with it.

1) The obvious. There would be a time limit.  No healthy relationship can cope with that.

2) The scare of getting too attached before I go.  We could get too involved before I have to leave which will inevitably piss us both off too the max.

Despite all this she has decided she wants to make a go of it and see how it goes. Fair enough.  Thats kinda what I wanted anyway. Grrrr. I think way too much. I should cut down on the whole thinking thing. Its not healthy.

Well thats pretty much the only beef I've had suck in my tooth recently really. I would love to keep typing and tell more. But there isn't anything else.

so go away.

So here I am again after another eventful weekend.

Is it wrong to date someone much younger than you when your friends don't approve? You see I met this girl on the weekend called, well, lets not say for now. But whatever, I thought she was fairly cool.  We met in a club then wandered off on a stupidly random walk, trying to gate-crash parties, drinking ourselves stupid. But anyway, we ended up doing stuff that night. And all was good until she told me that she had lied about her age. I beleived her about that at first cos she looks older. But she wasn't and again, I don't wanna say but she was too young. At least commonly too young.

But the bastard is I like  Her. And she's left it up to me to decide what I want to do. I'm meeting her tonight and I'm supposed to be delivering an answer. But I don't know what I'm gonna say. Not to mention I'm moving to fucking London in 2 months. So even if I say I wanna make a go of it then there's still a time-limit.

Apart from that, things are great. The weather has been hot and sunny all weekend and I played my best ever gig last night. Not fro Ben And Ryan though. Although Ryan is in it, I played in a band called 'Scratchy'. We just do old covers like Thin Lizzy and R.E.M 'n stuff but it was cool. We got it right and I'm glad. Pfeh.

They say that the weather can affect your mood. I've now decided thats true. I woke up this morning with sun in my eyes and I loved it. I haven't felt so good in the morning for like, ever. I'm at work - but I don't care! Wierd huh?

So, the gravy of the day is Weather + Moods.

Perhaps all this whining and mopeing was weather enduced. I don't know. I have a feeling that it's got something to do with a huge lack of activities. For instance, when it's raining, no-one wants to come out because they'll get wet and no-one drives so they stay in and watch TV leaving the asker (in this case, me) more determined to get people out and do something thus resulting in being more bored when nothing happens. When its sunny however, everyone has suggestions. We might go and play football down the park with a case of beer or go girl hunting in town. This is fun thus, makes you happy. Only problem is, When you get months of solid rain, despite the fact there wasn't much to to in the first place, the very little there was  to do JUST GOT BORING! So you're stuck in a catch 22. The TV dictates you life and the pub now feels like a chore. But when the sun comes out its as though you're living in a different town. Hell it even looks  different.

I dunno maybe its just me. I think too much. Hopefully things will change when I move down to Guilford. There I can see new things, meet new people and play more gigs. But lets not moan too much eh? make the most of this gold-dust weather!

I won't be posting till monday now cos I'm off work till then. Not that anyone cares but hey. I'll tell all about the weekend then.

Look everyone its me!!!!!

Apparently...

I got bored (whats new?) and created this 'WeeMee' thing on MSN. The bastards wanted me to pay for it so I just printed the screen and saved it as a JPEG... Clever me.

So whats the beef today? Not alot. Just found out I gotta work tomorrow which sucks but hey - I need the mahoney.

Moan of the Day:- Girls (Pretty much the only thing on my moan agenda)

Some  people  have heard one of the songs of the EP called 'Fools Without A Name'. Its about looking for that special someone you haven't met yet and how much you want to meet them. Well one year on and I'm here again. Except I think I know who this person is... Wierd I know. Most frustrating thing is that I don't actually know her. And she doesn't know me. But we do know who the other is. Did that make sense? Probably not. I do think about her alot but I'm not sure she even knows me well enough to return the favour. ::sigh::

Some times I wanna make myself  Puke . Feel free. Puke ahoy.

This bravenet Journal is getting on my tits also. Everytime I go to edit a post, it deletes half of it. Like, actually half. Then just leaves you with the beginning and half a sentence. Grrrrr. I've written this twice already.

OK I'm done....